christina angeli 🌺

It is 2017! New year, new hopes, and exciting days ahead as in several weeks, we would finally get to see our lil mini me/mini Wati! yeah!  January 6, 2017. Our 4th ultrasound. I had my hopes up going to the laboratory. I felt positive that this time, the hemorrhage would be gone, or if not, would decrease even more. But my hopes were shattered as not only was the  hemorrhage still there, it increased in size! (from 4.5ml to 5.9ml despite all the meds) :( Tears welled up my eyes when the sonologist said that the hemorrhage increased..and then cried so hard when I got out of the laboratory. I cried coz I was so frustrated that it was still there. I got so down because I was so hopeful that everything would be ok. I cried coz I got so scared of losing the lil one who we prayed for so long, and who we finally were blessed to have been conceived. So damn scared. I would not be able to take it if it would happen. I ...

I hope you don't mind I hope you don't mind That I put down in words How wonderful life is Now you're in the world <3 I'm writing this addressed to you, my baby love.. Your Song by Elton John was my song for you when I learned, after so long, that I'm finally pregnant with you. And everytime I hear that song, I choke up, because my eyes would tear up, and my heart would feel like bursting because of the overwhelming  happiness of finally having you, my little miracle, inside me...I was already so in love with you even that early, that thinking about it now is making me hold back the tears. :) So two weeks passed with me just lying down in bed. Babe, I felt like a day lasted for more than 24 hours coz I was literally doing nothing. hehe. I have to be honest, I was bored, being one who had so many things to do before I had you. But I'd rather be bored, than lose you, my love. 12.23.16, we  had our 3rd ultrasound to check on the subchorio...