How Wonderful Life is Now that You're in our world

It is 2017! New year, new hopes, and exciting days ahead as in several weeks, we would finally get to see our lil mini me/mini Wati! yeah!

 January 6, 2017. Our 4th ultrasound. I had my hopes up going to the laboratory. I felt positive that this time, the hemorrhage would be gone, or if not, would decrease even more. But my hopes were shattered as not only was the  hemorrhage still there, it increased in size! (from 4.5ml to 5.9ml despite all the meds) :( Tears welled up my eyes when the sonologist said that the hemorrhage increased..and then cried so hard when I got out of the laboratory. I cried coz I was so frustrated that it was still there. I got so down because I was so hopeful that everything would be ok. I cried coz I got so scared of losing the lil one who we prayed for so long, and who we finally were blessed to have been conceived. So damn scared. I would not be able to take it if it would happen. I cried coz  I was also so tired of lying down for most part of the day. I had a whirlwind of emotions that day. Good thing Wati was always positive and was always reassuring, else I would have lost my mind.

So when we had our check up, I begged the doctor that I be allowed to attend a wedding just to refresh and remove the negativities away. It was a breath of fresh air when she allowed me as long as the walking is put to a minimum. And truth be told, after that party, I was given a new sense of hope, and a revitalized energy to go on bed rest again. hehe.
 

January also meant Sinulog time. I prayed the 9 day novena in bed. At least in my one way, I could celebrate the Child Jesus, who I persistently prayed to get pregnant, and who I persistently prayed to for my baby's safety.  It was also my first Sinulog stuck at home.  Good thing Wati stayed with me. Oh well, he had no choice. hahah. So we had  aK-drama marathon the whole time while everybody else were partying.hehe.

So another 2 weeks passed. January 19, 2017.


Euana, my niece was admitted so I stayed in the hospital with them coz I was scheduled to have my labs and another ultrasound. Gosh! thank God mama was with me coz I did not expect the labs alone would cost me more than 6 thousand pesos, and I have to have another ultrasound, which cost one thousand three hundred pesos!! My money was not enough. Waaa, so expensive to be pregnant, and even more expensive when you have a high-risk pregnancy!


So  Wati was not able to join me today, for the 1st time, as he had work stuff that he needed to do before he leaves Accenture.


So I had another ultrasound.  The hemorrhage increased once again. :( from 5.9ml to 7.02ml. Again, I was heartbroken, but unlike the last ultrasound, I was more positive this time, and despite the news of the increase, I was still so overwhelmed because you were still so ok inside, with a heart rate of 142 bpm. :) And I got teary eyed again, not just because of the increase, but more because you looked big already. I was overwhelmed with so much happiness seeing you again, and seeing you grow stronger and bigger, and taking more of a human form this time. You were already 12 weeks and 6 days, and that early, the sonologist said "hala naa ni siwil" (oh, something is protruding). I asked her what she meant, and she said the lil bub might be a boy, but she cautioned me not to buy boy stuff yet as this was not yet sure. hehe. girl or boy, I couldn't wait to be with my lil sweet pea. <3

I waited for a few days, and I happily announced to everybody how wonderful life was that you are now in our world.