christina angeli 🌺

July 1, was the day I met my forever love...my son.  <3 But the days after that weren't the easiest for me.  I got to my room at around 12:00 am and they woke me up around 5:00am to go to the nursery to feed Trystyn. I was wheeled to the Nursing area and since it was off limits to males, Wati had to go back to the room.  As soon as I was there they gave me Trystyn who was so small and fragile that I got scared I might not be able to hold him properly. The doctor went in and showed me how to let Trystyn latch and man I never thought breastfeeding was hard until that day! My lil bundle of joy could not latch properly as his mouth was so small and my nips were so huge! 😆 I was not even sure if he was able to get anything as he became fussy a few minutes after. I decided to let him latch on the other breast, but I didn't even know how to transfer him to the other side!  Waaaa! It was difficult, frustrating and and what's worse, the effects of the epidural were alread...

  Motherhood is beautiful but not easy.. The blues are real..not many talk openly about it because of the norm that moms have to always be strong and have no right to feel down..and though i agree that moms have to toughen up but post partum blues are real and most,if not all, moms feel it. Im not talking about postpartum depression...that's something far more serious and scary and something some moms sadly experience... But the blues, yeah they are real..i find myself crying at times that aside from the normal postpartum aches and pains, i had to have bladder atony, that i still have a catheter on that limited my movements and my ability to take care of T, that i have to depend so much on others and most heartbreaking is that my baby won't latch on me when even from the start of my pregnancy i was determined to breast feed.. (but thank God for breast pumps!) The blues they are real.. but it helps that you acknowledge your feelings and not let it overwhelm you too much..it hel...

My due date was supposed to be July 30, 2017. It was still July 1, 2017. And I was already in the labor room. I only had my rosary, and my massage roller with me. I prayed hard for a safe delivery. In the morning of July 1, the contractions were a bit more frequent but not that painful yet. I had little to no sleep as I was scared, and worried, and the docs and nurses kept checking up on me. Around 10am, I felt the contractions a bit closer but the pain was tolerable. I sat up, walked, and tried to relax. I saw some mommies come and go the delivery room (some shouting some silent like me). Then mid afternoon I could already feel the contractions intensify. And the intervals were nearer. I just held on to my rosary and rolled my massage rollers over my now aching lower back. I would still continue to walk to the cr. When the contractions became intense, i'd sometimes stand up and bend down towards the bed. I would just make deep breaths when the pain became too much. I was so s...