christina angeli 🌺

I read a post in facebook about the  10 most important things  a Dad learned after losing his 3-year old son. #9 in that list made me decide to blog again: 9. ”Keep a journal. Write down everything your little ones do that lights up your world. The funny things they say, the cute things they do. We only started doing this after we lost Hughie. We wanted to remember everything. Now we do it for Hettie and we will for Hennie too. You’ll have these memories written down forever and when your older you can look back and cherish every moment.” I want to pen down all the things I love about life, most especially  about our rainbow baby, who we were finally blessed with after the 2013 heartache of losing our first baby. That's 4 years of waiting. So this blog is resurrected... ...so i'd have an avenue  to write about Trystyn Thaddeus, our lil dude, who has beautifully invaded our  lives (and prolly a bit of romantic bits about daddy and me. ...

They say that at 15 months, trystyn's already too big to be breastfed (mixed fed now) but i persisted (despite the biting and the twiddling and the zero night life.lol) coz i know my milk would do wonders for the lil dude and especially during times when he is sick. Research has shown that mother’s milk rapidly changes in response to a baby’s infections. Breast milk usually contains a small number of infection-busting cells called leukocytes. When a baby is sick, the numbers of leukocytes in breast milk spike. Amazing how breastmilk adapts to a baby's needs. Yesterday and today had been the only times trystyn looked and acted weak. He would not play, did not want to eat (except for burgers..yeah i know im a bad mom for letting him eat unhealthy but its the only thing he wants to take in since yesterday so id rather have him fed so i wont accept any criticisms) and just wanted to be carried. The times he had colds (few times with cough) he was still alert and active until now. ...

Partz,      15 years.      At times you get into my nerves...and im pretty sure many times i get into yours. But those times we hate (for lack of a milder word) each other are nothing compared to the many many more wonderful and beautiful times we had together.           The past 13 years have only been about me and you. But lately (the last two years) we can hardly date and if we can its a quickie one because our lil dude demands so much of our time. We hardly even hold hands or cuddle when we sleep (everyday before unless we are fighting hehe) because the lil dude stays in the center, or when he doesnt, he gets mad if I dont' face him.hehe.      Times may have changed, our just the two of us world has now been wonderfully invaded by a lil boy, but as you said we should never forget that he is the fruit of our love. A nd although there may be times when i get to say words that may hurt you or i seem fed up, k...

Before Trystyn came into our lives, it was just you and me. And those 5 years of "just you and me" were 5 years of love (and the occasional shouting matches here and there lol) and 5 years of weekly (or more) dates. We always made sure to find time to date each other despite our busy schedules.  But going out on a date is a very rare  occurence nowadays. 😔 Trystyn has taken up so much of our lives, coupled with work that time for the two of us has been pushed aside. But God knows how much I miss you, how much I miss us. 😢 So even a quick just the two of us get together makes my heart beat as fast as it did then. Today, we had a q uick (and i mean really quick na get the bill after the last piece of noodle quick coz the boss baby is waiting ) but much needed "just the two of us" date after work. Left my meeting at CIS (pit-os) at 5PM, picked up Wati in school, and got home 5mins before 7PM with traffic and the date in between so you can just imagine how quick the...

So what they say is true na When your child is unusually silent, he is up to something! Trystyn is usually "kiat" and noisy but he was unusually silent and behaved in bed..until i realized he had scooped out ALL of my newly bought night moisturizer (and mind you moisturizers are not cheap) and lathered them on his legs (we put lotion on him everyday so I guess that's why he put them on his legs) and the rest on his ukulele!!! And when I caught him ( I guess he was a bit surprised with my slightly elevated voice), he cried. 😅 Hay, Trystyn, if you only know how much an Olay Night cream costs! Tsk! . And every time i talk to him about it with a slightly high tone, he would immediately latch on my booby so I won't reprimand him. Hahaha. Such a wise and cheeky boy. Ng anti aging na daan imo legs, dong na 1 year old paka 😫

My love,  You were supposed to come out on july 30 of last year..but because   it was seen during my regular ultrasound that my bag of water was dangerously low we had to rush to the hospital to make sure everything would be ok ..my body was not yet ready for you to get out so they had to hasten my contractions... After more than 24 hours, at 7:40pm last year, I first saw you.. When you came out , i heard you cry hard and then the doctor said that despite you being short of 36 weeks, you had a very strong cry. ❤️ I remember reaching out for you the moment you were out and the happiness that enveloped me when you were finally put on top of me that I could not help but cry. Oh, how I wish your dad was able to bring a camera that time and captured our first moment together. And now you are a year old! Oh how time flies! You were still so fragile then, now you've grown to be a tall, strong, heavy and a very smart boy. I love you so much, anak! I know you won't remember the party ...

 This summer had been full-packed and fun-packed! Our little dude had 6 summer outings and a lot of firsts just for this summer. He had his first train ride in March! He rode it in Ayala with Daddy, Ate Zoe and Ate Nana (who claimed she took a perfect shot of Trystyn.lol)  He also had his first ever boat ride! We rode a barge from Cebu to Bohol with Lola Babie, Lola Ceding, Lolo Dad, Lola Igling, Daddy Nic, Mommy Tet, Mommy Yo, Ate Zoe and Ate Nana.  Boat ride with Lola Ceding His first of summer was in the beautiful island of Bohol and he saw the Chocolate Hills and swam in Bohol's pristine white beach! Hello, Bohol! He also turned 9 months in Bohol and celebrated by hearing mass in one of Bohol's old churches and swimming in the beach for hours!  I turned 9 months old today! The lil dude's 2nd of summer was in Cebu Safari in Catmon, Cebu with the Abellana family and Lola Babie. He saw giraffes, a tiger, a jaguar, and so many others. His favorite were the birds in t...

I left the house early today when Trystyn was still asleep.  I was also so busy yesterday that i was hardly able to play with him.  When i got home at around 6pm today, he was outside. Everytime i come home he gets all excited when i roll down the car window and he could not wait for me to carry him.. But today, no matter how i called him, he wouldn't look at me even when my face was centimeters from him.  Nangluod ang baby. 😢 I was so affected that I cried while bathing. Good thing after quite some time, he finally "forgave" (lol) me and became clingy again. Dong, sometimes (most of the time) mom's busy but I hope one day you'd understand that everything mommy does is for you my son..so ayaw na pangluod hah? Hehe. i love you trystyn..so much!

  For years, during mother's day, i always prayed that the next year i'd finally get to be greeted "happy mother's day!". For years, i cried. But now i have you Trystyn Thaddeus, the all knowing God finally answered my relentless prayers, and though i gave up so many things because of you (my body, my space, my time, sleep), and though at times (oh ok almost every time ) i get so exhausted, i would never have it any other way. You are my answered prayer, my new found happiness, my extra reason to become a better version of me. It is an honor to be your mother. I love you. And finally happy mother's day to me!

Today, I left the house a few minutes after 8am when T just woke up and got back home a few minutes before 8pm when T was about to sleep because i had loads of things to do. When i was nursing T to sleep earlier this evening, he kept on sitting up, as if still wanting to play (even when he looked so sleepy)... suddenly, my tears unabashedly streamed down my face. I couldn't help it. I was EXHAUSTED AF, i'm feeling like cough and colds are just around the corner and I just wanted to rest so badly.  And then i continued to cry coz i resented the fact that i was not able to spend as much time with him today because i had so many things to do  And then i cried coz i felt guilty that i should be glad that he still wants play but then all i badly wanted was to rest.   But though i just wanted to snooze i also could not help but want to play a while with him (which i did) Waaa!! So many mixed emotions! But as i lovingly stared at him now, sleeping on my arm and still latching o...

Since finally latching on me, we have finally let go of the formula. And since I had to work and be away from the lil dude for most part of the day, I had to pump milk every two hours, wherever I would be, so I can sustain the breastmilk feeding. Since I was not blessed with lots of milk, I did not have a frozen milk stash. Well I used to, but with how much Trystyn is taking in a day, the stash vanished! So all I did was pump just enough to sustain his consumption for the next day or 2. I was an "enougher". I know there is no such term (lol) but I used it to mean that I only had enough milk to feed him the next day unlike other moms who need not worry whether they can pump enough to feed their bubbas. Truth be told, giving Trystyn breastmilk is no easy feat. Aside from the fact that I'm still huge ( yes huge!!!), dieting and exercise (as if i have the time to exercise with my schedule) make my supply low, i had to take a lot of galactagogues so i can sustain my milk and ...

2017 's one for the books! 5 months of my 2017 i was on bedrest...but those 5 long months were all worth it because on July 1, 2017, we got the best gift: our long awaited (5 years in the making) baby love Trystyn Thaddeus!  And the last 6months of the year have been full of diaper changes, feeding, soothing, a whole lot of firsts, but most especially a whole lot of love! Cheers to our 1st New Year celebration as a family! 👨‍👩‍👦 I can't wait for the memories that we will be making in 2018!❤️ The # 1 holds a special place in my heart: 1. I learned i was finally pregnant last December1, 2016.  2. I gave birth to my handsome boy on July 1  3. On January 1 36 years ago, my 1st and last boyfriend, my love for 14years, and my husband and partner for life was born.  So today, January 1 2018 is a very special day because of these 2 loves of my life!  Happy 6 months old, baby Trystyn! 6months passed by so fast! Soon we'd be preparing for your 1st birthday! Happy birt...