Breastmilk Feeding

Since finally latching on me, we have finally let go of the formula. And since I had to work and be away from the lil dude for most part of the day, I had to pump milk every two hours, wherever I would be, so I can sustain the breastmilk feeding. Since I was not blessed with lots of milk, I did not have a frozen milk stash. Well I used to, but with how much Trystyn is taking in a day, the stash vanished! So all I did was pump just enough to sustain his consumption for the next day or 2. I was an "enougher". I know there is no such term (lol) but I used it to mean that I only had enough milk to feed him the next day unlike other moms who need not worry whether they can pump enough to feed their bubbas.

Truth be told, giving Trystyn breastmilk is no easy feat. Aside from the fact that I'm still huge (yes huge!!!), dieting and exercise (as if i have the time to exercise with my schedule) make my supply low, i had to take a lot of galactagogues so i can sustain my milk and taking them makes a (big) whole in my pocket (milk boosters are quite expensive), plus the pumping at work, in the mall, while driving, sometimes during dawn (and the washing of the parts) are really tiring.

Coupled with the discouraging remarks of some people that my milk is not enough, or that I am "starving" Trystyn because I only gave him 3-4 oz of milk every 2 hours, and that I should give him formula instead! :(

But seeing Trystyn big, strong and healthy because of MY milk pushes me to go on with this journey. Despite the fact that I only am able to give him 3-4oz of milk every feeding, Trystyn has grown to be such a big and heavy boy. In fact the pediatrician said his weight is very good for his age. 

And the bond i have with him because of breastfeeding is priceless! There are times when he is latching, and then he would stop, look up, and smile at me, ohhhh, it just pushes me to continue with this path of feeding.

So I guess im staying fat and tired, and with a thin wallet until he stops..kanusa pa kaha? Hehe.

But for you dong, all the sacrifices are worth it. So go lang ng go ta ani!

Pumping in my office cubicle which has no door!

Right now, I am the center of Trystyn's universe. But someday I will stop being the woman of his life and I will accept that. But for now, I will enjoy his promises, hugs, and kisses.

I love you Trystyn Thaddeus. Mama will treasure your being very clingy now, our hours of latching at night even when because of it mama's back hurt and mama feels like a zombie at work, your cheeky smile when you see me come home and when you immediately force me to carry you lying down so you can dede even when you just had your milk. I'm gonna treasure everything because someday i would no longer be your world. I love you so much.