Heart Beats Fast

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We were told to have a second ultrasound to test for fetal cardiac activity a few days after your first ultrasound.


So on December 9, 2016, we excitedly went back to Chong Hua.



You were already  6 weeks and 6 days  inside my tummy. And then we heard your heart beat for the first time. I could still remember your daddy looked at me in awe. Your heart was beating so fast. 128 bpm to be exact. Mine was too because of excitement, wonder, happiness and already overwhelming love for you that I got teary eyed. It was such a beautiful moment for your daddy and me. ❤




But the ultrasound also showed I had a subchorionic hemorrhage. 😢 So when we went to our OB, Dra. Sabado, she got worried upon seeing the report. she told me the volume of the hemorrhage was significant. I asked her what was the concern about and she said I was at risk for a spontaneous abortion. That shook me.  If you only knew how scared I was that day I almost cried in the clinic. she had me take medicine to make sure you'd hold on and advised me to go on complete bed rest for 2 weeks.



 I went home worried and prayed hardest for your safety. I was so scared of losing you. I kept thinking that if that would happen (again) I would not be able to take it. I was not that strong.😭


So when we got home, we immediately moved from our room on the 2nd floor to the small room on the 1st floor. I was determined to stay in bed for 2 weeks just to make sure you'd be ok.



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