christina angeli 🌺

July 1, was the day I met my forever love...my son.  <3 But the days after that weren't the easiest for me.  I got to my room at around 12:00 am and they woke me up around 5:00am to go to the nursery to feed Trystyn. I was wheeled to the Nursing area and since it was off limits to males, Wati had to go back to the room.  As soon as I was there they gave me Trystyn who was so small and fragile that I got scared I might not be able to hold him properly. The doctor went in and showed me how to let Trystyn latch and man I never thought breastfeeding was hard until that day! My lil bundle of joy could not latch properly as his mouth was so small and my nips were so huge! 😆 I was not even sure if he was able to get anything as he became fussy a few minutes after. I decided to let him latch on the other breast, but I didn't even know how to transfer him to the other side!  Waaaa! It was difficult, frustrating and and what's worse, the effects of the epidural were alread...

  Motherhood is beautiful but not easy.. The blues are real..not many talk openly about it because of the norm that moms have to always be strong and have no right to feel down..and though i agree that moms have to toughen up but post partum blues are real and most,if not all, moms feel it. Im not talking about postpartum depression...that's something far more serious and scary and something some moms sadly experience... But the blues, yeah they are real..i find myself crying at times that aside from the normal postpartum aches and pains, i had to have bladder atony, that i still have a catheter on that limited my movements and my ability to take care of T, that i have to depend so much on others and most heartbreaking is that my baby won't latch on me when even from the start of my pregnancy i was determined to breast feed.. (but thank God for breast pumps!) The blues they are real.. but it helps that you acknowledge your feelings and not let it overwhelm you too much..it hel...

My due date was supposed to be July 30, 2017. It was still July 1, 2017. And I was already in the labor room. I only had my rosary, and my massage roller with me. I prayed hard for a safe delivery. In the morning of July 1, the contractions were a bit more frequent but not that painful yet. I had little to no sleep as I was scared, and worried, and the docs and nurses kept checking up on me. Around 10am, I felt the contractions a bit closer but the pain was tolerable. I sat up, walked, and tried to relax. I saw some mommies come and go the delivery room (some shouting some silent like me). Then mid afternoon I could already feel the contractions intensify. And the intervals were nearer. I just held on to my rosary and rolled my massage rollers over my now aching lower back. I would still continue to walk to the cr. When the contractions became intense, i'd sometimes stand up and bend down towards the bed. I would just make deep breaths when the pain became too much. I was so s...

So I had a doppler velocimetry on JUne 7, 2017. A Doppler velocimetry is a way to make sure that the baby is getting a healthy supply of blood. The ultrasound thankfully showed that the circulation of blood was a-ok! Lately I had been feeling more frequent tummy tightening. I could feel it harden real hard..rock hard.. and the vajayjay feels like something is pushing against it and I feel like peeing everytime the it happens :( The visit to the OB confirmed that what I was feeling were contractions and that baby is already ready to come out as the doc could already feel the head has descended. I was still 32 weeks  pregnant! So not yet the time for him to see his beautiful mom.  My doc got worried that I might pop way before baby is full term, prescribed me ixolilan for the contractions and prescribed me to be injected with Betamethasone (Diprospan) to hasten the lil dude's lung maturity in case he might be born premature. the doc put me on bed re...

I've been very excited about my upcoming baby showers. But unfortunately, I could not attend any of them. I have been having contractions, strong ones, and I can feel like bub's head is pushing down may vajayjay. Putting on panties and standing up have become painful down there. So when I had my prenatal check-up last May 16, the doctor confirmed that baby boy has started to descend and contractions were not just practice contractions. :( So she put me on bed rest again for 2 weeks. I was to have another ultrasound after the bed rest to check for my cervical length. I was still 29 weeks pregnant and I got scared! I can't give birth yet! huhuh. So I heeded the advise and cancelled the baby showers and apologized to the big bosses in the firm that I have to be MIA again. I think the contractions were brought about by the stress of attending hearings. hehe. I was not supposed to attend them yet but how can one refuse the bosses when you had been absent for more than 3 months...

 I actually missed the 2 week scans and the 2 week visits to the doctor as now I had to wait a month before I get to listen to baby boy's heartbeat, and a month before getting to see his development inside my tummy. April is about to end. Daddy and Mommy just had their 5th wedding anniversary. Our last "just the two of us" anniversary. :) And the lil pea is on his 27th week (more or less) and my tummy's getting very big that people would think I was about to give birth. Yes it was that big, and yes I got so big, and my nose got bigger (and harder.lol). And my face was full of acne!!! :( Doc said my weight gain and acne were brought about my meds.  I couldn't wait to get off them, but of course I was willing to take them longer if it meant baby will be safer. I also had some days when my tummy would harden. I assumed they were Braxton Hicks contractions or those that they call rehearsal/practice contractions that a mommy feels ...

March had been busy. I finally got back to the office (March 6) after a 12 week hiatus though the Doc told me to avoid hearings as much as possible and just stay in the office during work time. The Guava Republic, my College BFFs met up because our fried, June, came home from Canada. My cute bump   But the best part of my March was my highly anticipated mid pregnancy ultrasound!! I was hungry for one as I had been used to my 2 week scans and doctor check up and it's been a while since I've heard bub's heartbeat and seen his developments. I was very eager in knowing how the baby was doing and very very excited to know if our little bub would be a darling I could dress up in cute pretty dresses, or a sweetheart who'd play football with his dad. So the day came, March 30, 2017. I guess everybody who saw my big nose was right... It's a BOY!!!!! 💙💙💙 And his forehead is as big as dad's (and mom's) hehehe.